... about losing my wargaming and railway modelling mojo.
I think that periodically most wargamers and railway modellers lose their enthusiasm for their hobbies. Sometimes it lasts a few day, sometimes a few weeks ... and sometimes even longer. In my case, this lack of enthusiasm has been coming on for some time and for several reasons.
Firstly, since I broke my leg on 10th April last year, getting to my toy/wargame room – where I do most of my wargaming and railway modelling – has been difficult. After a spell in hospital, I was confined to bed until the end of last August and could not walk – even aided – until the middle of September. I finally made it up to my toy/wargame room in mid-October, once we had a stairlift installed. However, accessing the room still remains problematic, and carrying figures, terrain, etc., up or down from the room is very difficult. This means that my wargaming and railway modelling are pretty well restricted to a single room on the top floor of our house ... and that rooms gets very hot during the summer months.
Secondly, most of my wargaming figures and terrain are in a storage unit some miles away and not easily accessible. We did this in preparation for our planned house move last year ... the house move that never took place because I broke my leg! I do have my Belle Époque collection and some of my Eastern Front/Great Patriotic War collection in my toy/wargame room as well as a small selection of Hexon II hexes ... but I really need more of the latter to hand to be able to fight a wargame. That said, most of my model railway stuff is in my toy/wargame room and easily accessible.
Thirdly, I seem to feel mentally and physically tired almost all the time. There is a well-known joke about old people falling asleep almost as soon as they sit in an armchair, but I can confirm that like most jokes, it contains an element of truth! I regularly wake up in the morning feeling as if I haven't slept well and doze off for up to an hour most afternoons. This is not conducive to working on one's hobbies as the tiredness saps one's ability to concentrate and then one begins to make mistakes, which are – in turn – very demoralising.
Fourthly, my recent floating shelf model railway project has – to use an appropriate metaphor – hit the buffers. As I mentioned in a past blog post, I had problems with the paint I was using not sticking to the plastic that covered the MDF floating shelf. I did find a solution (peel off the Fablon-like plastic to expose the MDF) but after that I ran into another problem, this time with the layout's wiring. Now this is not something that I expected to happen as I am using KATO Unitrack, which is well-known for its ease of use and outstanding reliability. I finally traced the problem to one of the points, whose mechanism was jamming and replaced it ... only to find that almost all of my locomotives had stopped working! Even after servicing each of the locomotives (i.e. cleaning the contacts and oiling the bearings), the reliability of all but one of them remains marginal if not downright poor.
Now, experience has shown me that when things are going wrong, it makes no sense to continue pushing forward. Doing that merely reinforces failure ... and can lead to a feeling of greater ennui and even depression. I am – therefore – planning to stop working on any serious wargaming or model railway projects for the next few weeks. I hope that by taking a break, my enthusiasm and energy will return sometime soon. I will, however, continue to blog as often as I can.
The title of this blog post comes from the opening line of the following poem.
I'll tell you a story
About Jack a Nory,
And now my story's begun;
I'll tell you another
Of Jack and his brother,
And now my story is done.
This short poem, which dates from the middle the eighteenth century, gave its name to JACKANORY, ...
... the famous BBC children's TV programme that was broadcast between 13th December 1965 and 24th March 1996. It featured an actor (often a famous one, including Tom Baker, Bernard Cribbins, Edward Fox, Sir Michael Horden, Sir Ian McKellen, Spike Milligan, Sir Tony Robinson, Sir Patrick Stewart, and Kenneth Williams) reading children's books or folk tales, usually whilst they were seated in an armchair.
Hi Bob
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that you are losing your mojo.
I hesitate to comment, because our approach to the hobby is so different. You have this wonderful butterfly approach, with many completely different projects. I have a very narrow interest in my 1813 campaign.
However we do share an interest in posting regularly online about our hobby, and also a passionate interest in our hobby, however different our projects.
I agree that most, if not all, wargamers probably suffer a similar lack of enthusiasm. I overcome this by regularly taking on new projects within the campaign. For example changing the size of the battles/wargames by adjusting the orders of battle, or rewriting one or more campaign or wargame rules.
But mostly I avoid the problem by having a rigid routine to wargame at the same time on most days. When this routine is interupted, whether by health or personal problems or social commitments, I find it harder to return to the routine. This not only applies to my wargaming, but also to the walking group I run. Monday is our walking day, so I avoid other commitments on Monday. 3pm is when we wargame, so I arrange my daily routine to leave 3-4pm free.
Your health problems, and your storage difficulties, both make it difficult to stick to your routine. Perhaps reconsider how much and how often you WANT to partake in your hobby. And resrict it to projects that you can easily work on.
If this does not work, just take a break. It is meant to be a hobby after all, which implies it should be something we enjoy doing. But I doubt if the answer is a long break, I suspect that it is too important to you to do so.
Hope you soon regain your enthusiasm and interest.
regards
Paul
Thistlebarrow (Paul),
DeleteIt is the different approaches that we have to our hobby that enable use to bring a different perspectives to it. I envy your ability to direct your efforts into your enthralling Napoleonic campaigns as well as your wonderful wargame room!
Before I broke my leg and developed axonal poly neuropathy, I had a daily and weekly routine that I usually kept to. I did my writing first thing in the morning and would try to spend a morning and afternoon session in my toy/wargame room at least twice a week. I need to get back into that sort of routine … probably trying to do a day a week upstairs.
I had some news yesterday about my axonal polyneuropathy that I need to absorb and think about. Taking a break from wargaming for the next few days will help me do that … and by then, I hope that my mojo will have begun to return.
All the best,
Bob
I'm sorry to read the your about loosing your drive to your hobbies. That probably happens to several of us from time to time. -But usually it's just temporarily. If I get too confused on some projects I usually change focus to something else for a while and later probably downscale those projects initially mocking my motivation. hope a break will revitalise your interest and mojo for activities and hobbies that's gives you enjoyment.
ReplyDeleteRoger,
DeleteI gather from the feedback I’ve had and my own experience, I suspect that a break will help me to regain my mojo. It will also give me a chance to think about what project or projects I want to pursue for the foreseeable future.
All the best,
Bob
BOB,
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry to hear that you have in ways lost your mojo for your Hobby. Let us hope that it is temporary. I rarely loose interest -as a few times I change the theme I've been working on- my latest Project is 15mm Imaginations. I find that waiting for the delivery of a figure order from the UK or US is my biggest problem as over time of inactivity waiting results in me loosing interest. Stay well my friend. Cheers. KEV.
BOB,
DeleteMaybe you need the help of some strong lads to move all your hobby items down to a lower level in your house- it would be much better for you to have easier access. Regards. KEV.
Kevin Robertson (Kev),
DeleteI’m sure that you’re right about it only being a temporary phenomenon and that a short break will enable me to regain my mojo. In the meantime, I can follow your imagi-nations project as it develops!
All the best,
Bob
Kevin Robertson (Kev),
DeleteFunnily enough, I’ve had at least one offer to do exactly that!
All the best,
Bob
Quote by Douglas Adams: “Life,” said Marvin, “don't talk to me about life.”
ReplyDeleteOne never knows for sure where life will take us. Considering all you've been through, I think you've handled it better than most would. Over this last year or so, I started feeling overwhelmed by my hobby crossed with reduced energy and an increase of non-hobby duties.
After much pondering. I started trimming down my hobby options, letting things go that I thought I would miss but as it turned out the memories (and a few pictures and old blog posts) gave me pleasure but did not trigger a desire to do them again.
But we all need to find our own way to coming to terms with life.
Ross Mac,
DeleteMarvin is one of my all-time favourite characters!
My life seems to have been dominated by interactions with the medical profession for the last five years. In fact, I produced a spreadsheet to keep track of all my appointments and it has nearly 300 entries … which works out at about one each week.
I suspect that I will be following a similar path and will end up downsizing my wargame collections. I’ve already done that with my books, but I need to see what I actually have before deciding what needs to go.
All the best,
Bob
Sometimes it's good to take a break from something one has spent a great deal of time on. Hopefully your mojo will return with the fall.
ReplyDeleteMark Cordone,
DeleteCheers! I’m hoping that the break will quickly regenerate my mojo. It certainly has done in the past.
All the best,
Bob
Sorry to hear about your lack of interest. I do know how you feel. I thought once I retired I would have endless time to work on my hobbies. However, I have been spending much of my time with my wife, who has had a hard time in the last 5 years health and mentally after losing both her mother and one sister, along with 2 of her best friends. Usually when I have time it is in the evening and by then I'm too tired to do anything.
ReplyDeleteJhnptrqn,
DeleteI retired ten years ago and also expected that my days would be filled with wargaming … and for the first five years, they were. Then, the COVID pandemic happened and I was diagnosed with colorectal cancer … and everything changed. I struggled on fairly well until last year, but breaking my leg and then developing of axonal polyneuropathy hit my mobility hard and I have yet to regain the tempo of life I used to enjoy.
I hope that we both find ways forward and can resume our former enjoyment for the hobby we share.
All the best,
Bob
Bob,
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel as I am experiencing that now. I had to put my beloved cat Ruby down on June 23rd. He had been suffering for over 3 months and the vets as usual could not do anything. He was my world, my best friend. I had him for 11 years. I know my wargaming mojo will return, it always does.
Spearhead, I am so sorry to hear about Ruby. But you did do the right thing to prevent him from suffering, emotionally painful though it must have been for you. When my cat, Napier, died suddenly, the vet gave me some good advice: 'remember all the happy times you shared' - and I still remember him, many years later. I'm sure you will always remember Ruby, too.
DeleteSpearhead,
DeleteI can well understand how you feel. Parting from a beloved feline companion is always a wrench and when our previous cat died, we were devastated. Luckily, we were able to re-home a mature female who was being bullied by another cat … and she has been our constant companion ever since. In fact, sphere are times when it feels as if she rules and we obey!
I hope that your grief will soon abate and that you’ll also regain your mojo.
All the best,
Bob
Arthur1815,
DeleteWell said … and some excellent advice.
All the best,
Bob
Bob, very sorry to hear your mojo has gone AWOL. You are an inspiration to me as a wargamer - and I'm sure many others as well.
ReplyDeleteGary S,
DeleteCheers, old friend! I’m sure that I’ll soon regain my mojo … and I have plenty to occupy me until I do.
All the best,
Bob
Bob,
ReplyDeleteI empathise. I've just had a frustrating weekend modelling where everything seemed to go wrong - small parts popping off and disappearing into the void - unable to find something - paused for a while and started with another kit - here small thin parts kept breaking when removing from sprue. The crux came when fitting the second track not only did rear wheel assembly come off hull, but one of the wheels and assembly broke and disappeared. Despite much scrambling on hands and knees, I still haven't found it! It was that point that I quit!
After a break of a day or two, I've found a replacement wheel and fixed it (I hope) and put it away again.
Such disasters are demotivating and being frustrated at not being able to find things or get at what it is you want, naturally leads to the mojo disappearing.
I'm sure it will return; you can always have a moan on the VWC or try and get motivated from what others are up to....
Neil
Neil Patterson (Neil),
DeleteI’ve experienced that ‘nothing goes right’ situation many times … and it is so frustrating and demoralising! The worst has been spraying some painted figures with varnish that turned out to be white paint! And why do things like this always happen when one is not feeling at one’s best?
I’m sure that all the other members of the VWC has experienced this sort of ennui and I know that if I mention it on Saturday, I’ll get loads of support.
All the best,
Bob
Best wishes, Bob!
ReplyDeleteSometimes a break helps me. Other times, it's finding a new direction or some new minis to paint or getting back to an old idea or project.
Physical limitations can certainly put a damper on things. I have been experiencing that recently myself - first it was migraines flaring up; not it's a nasty cold/cough/sore throat. I am fortunate in knowing these things will pass, and cooler weather will be coming along soon(ish), which should also help.
Anyway, I hope you can find some ways to enjoy things and work on ideas!
Fitz-Badger,
DeleteCheers! I suffered from migraines when I was younger and know just how debilitating they can be. I hope that you are taking medication that alleviate your symptoms, and that you return to good health by the time the cooler weather starts.
All the best,
Bob
Bob -
ReplyDeleteI can relate! Sometimes, I guess, it is just as well to suspend wargames activities until the iron re-enters the soul. In the last couple of years I spent a lot of time 'finishing' quite a lot of 'unfinished' armies, beginning with the ACW in 2016, through to Byzantines, 19th Century Chromatic wars, 18th Century Imagi-Nations, 30YW, Sengoku, wayward excursions into naval warfare and its game elements, and a few other bits and pieces, including extra bits of terrain...
Doodling, I called some of it. A less charitable mind would probably have called it dithering. To some extent it was procrastinating. Possibly I could have dilated more on these projects than I did.
My main problem though is getting up the mojo to write anything. I'm hoping a read through of The Mad Padre's naval campaign will rev up the juices to write up the recently concluded battle off Barfleur Point. I took my time over this, the largest naval battle in which my Chubby Marine has featured. Did the Ruberian invasion fleet get through? Or did the Azurian navy send to the bottom...?
I guess we'll have to wait for the write-up!
Meanwhile, I'm setting up the Battle of Aspern-Essling. I'm thinking I might have to redo the ORBATs.
Cheers, and I hope that soon your mojo will return,
Ion
Archduke Piccolo (Ion),
DeleteCheers! I recently attended a session at our local community centre about the therapeutic effects of doodling. I was very sceptical at the start, but by the end I was a convert … so the idea of doing the wargaming equivalent of doodling might well help me regain my mojo.
Writing is something that I sometimes find very easy … and sometimes it can be very difficult. Luckily, with a laptop at least I don’t have a blank piece of paper staring back at me … something I’ve always found intimidating.
Good luck with Aspern-Essling! I’m sure you’ll have great fun refighting the battle.
All the best,
Bob
I find the recent heat saps my hobby energy. I wonder if these changing circumstances of being on a “desert island” in gaming terms with only a few random armies, reduced figure and terrain availability etc will inspire or have an influence on a new type of gaming for you? I have oft mentioned the quirky chapter by Donald Featherstone in Solo Wargaming called ‘Wargaming in Bed’ about gaming with temporarily restricted resources.
ReplyDeleteMark, Man of TIN,
DeleteI know exactly what you mean! During the past couple of months there are have been times when my toy/wargame room has been so hot that even with the windows open and a big fan going full pelt, it’s been too hot to stay there for more than a few minutes.
I suspect that downsizing my collections might ensure that what remains will get greater use than at present. But first, I need to create an inventory of what I do own!
All the best,
Bob
I think we all have ups and downs with wargaming. My health issues have been nothing like yours, but mobility problems just make everything so hard to do... You have my sympathy and hopefully something will spark your interest again.
ReplyDeleteMartin Rapier,
DeleteCheers! The process of getting old sometimes demands a physical price that seems unfairly high at time!
All the best,
Bob
As others have said, sometimes a break is needed, and I'm sure you'll coming bounding back with some great ideas and games reports in the near future (particularly when it cools down a bit)
ReplyDeleteMaudlin Jack Tar,
DeleteCheers! I’m sure that you’re right … and the support I’ve been receiving has lifted my spirits no end.
All the best,
Bob
Hi Bob - ask your doctor about sleep apnea - I’m struggling with that now. It may also be down to disturbed sleep from discomfort, which I also get. That’s before you get to the obligatory age-related wee wees at night… As far as wargaming is concerned, I stopped years ago and don’t miss it. I happily make models and paint toys, but being free from ‘collecting armies’ allows me to do what it want, when I want and in what size I want when the fancy takes me. Embrace it!
ReplyDeleteJeffers,
DeleteI suffered from mild sleep apnea and until I broke my leg, I used a C PAP machine. I wasn’t allowed to use it whilst I was in hospital … and haven’t used it since. The clinic decided that as my sleep apnea was marginal, I no longer needed it.
Wargaming has been part of my life for as long as I can remember and cannot envisage ever stopping. However, I find making the occasional model very therapeutic and perhaps I ought to raid my cache of unbuilt ones.
All the best,
Bob